About

Abigail

"delight of her father"

Abigail was a name we loved but never thought we'd get to use. On May 16th, 2022, we learned we would be having a girl and she had anencephaly. Anencephaly is a rare neural tube defect that develops in babies in the first couple weeks of pregnancy. It prevents the baby's skull from properly forming and leaves the brain exposed to the amniotic fluid. Anencephaly is always fatal.

As we watched her dance on the ultrasound we both thought, "That's Abigail." She isn't who we expected. She was our bonus baby - the one we never thought we'd get to have but were blessed to carry.

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Esme

"loved"

The Bible often compares people to wildflowers. Our lives are beautiful but short. We were advised to abort Abigail and told that she was "incompatible with life." But we believe that the value of human life is not measured by time and is no less beautiful for brevity. When she was born she may not have looked beautiful to others and as she grew she was even considered a weed by some people. In our eyes she was a wildflower: resplendent, wanted, worth nurturing, protecting, and cherishing every second of her life. This is how our Heavenly Father feels about each of you. You may not feel beautiful, wanted, or loved, but you are. He loves you more than you can imagine (Luke 12:27).

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Abigail Esme was born alive at 39w+4d gestation and was ours for about an hour and fifteen minutes. She passed so peacefully into her Heavenly Father's arms that we could not pinpoint the exact minute it happened. She is His delight and His love first. She is not an "angel baby" - she is a daughter of the King and there is a crown on her perfectly healed head in heaven.

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Thank you so much to those of you who prayed for us as we prepared for her coronation day. Please continue to hold us in your prayers as we grieve and look forward each day with hope for the resurrection.